The Power of Faith

It’s funny how you can look at someone’s life and think they have it all together or say to yourself, “they are so lucky, I wish I could do what they do”  “If only I had money.” etc etc etc. Well that was me only a couple months ago. Every month I was down to the wire, not knowing when or how I could pay the next bill and completely anxious that my account would overdraft.

What was most frustrating to me was that it wasn’t because I wasn’t getting work, it was that brands were just not paying me on time. In fact they were paying MONTHS late, so it was as if I wasn’t getting paid at all and it really hurt me. It hurt that I was working so hard to do this job full time and every time I was met with a challenge. I just wanted for once for it to just be a little easier. I mean I already worked so hard, could I at least see the reward from it and not have to pay my car note half at a time cause I couldn’t afford the whole thing at once!

Now I’m definitely a person of faith and I believe int he power of prayer but somewhere along the line I lost my way. My boyfriend would always watch sermons every morning and I would be in and out. I always made sure to watch on Sundays but as much as I believed what was being said, I was having a really hard time practicing it fully.

Until one specific day….

My sister was visiting me in LA from back home and the Sunday before she left we decided to go to church. My favorite church in LA is The Potters House at One Church. Without fail I always leave there feeling motivated and inspired. So when my sister came into town I knew I wanted to take her there. The sermon that day was all about taking risk and having faith enough to trust in God to catch you. The point I loved was that when you are taking a risk on something in your heart, it is actually not a risk at all. You are doing what is called and it will all fall into place. As moving as the sermon was, the main part that stuck out to me was the call to tithe.

My parents left the church when I was young and I would always go with just my sister when we were young teens but the concept of tithe was lost on me. I would always give offering but tithe is different. It’s 10% of your earnings donated to the church. It’s a way to give back from the blessings God has given you. I’m not going to lie, I never felt moved to do this. In fact I never was in a financially stable enough place to consider adding something new to spend my money on (at least that’s how I saw it at the time) But my whole perspective changed that day and every time I think about it I want to cry.

At this point, I still wasn’t getting paid by anyone and I barely had any money in my account but I decided to tithe. I didn’t tithe 10% of what I was making cause technically that was zero. I tithed 10% of what I WANTED to make each week. And here’s the freaky part. I kid you not, the week I decided to tithe I got paid immediately by a brand. I completed the work  and they paid me SAME DAY. This never ever happens. And guess what?! It was exactly the amount that made my 10% tithe make sense. My mind was honestly blown.

Once that happened the flood gates opened and all my back payments started to come in. I honestly couldn’t believe it. I didn’t tithe so I could receive money, I tithed because Once Church has been such a blessing on my life and has really helped strengthened my faith and my love for the Word. It was my thank you to God for such a blessed place.

I don’t share this story to tell you that you need to tithe or go to church. I’m telling it because when I look back merely 3 months ago, when I had nothing, to now, my heart is so full it could burst. And the only difference was my faith in God. The moment I was all in, my life completely changed for the better. The fact that I can work for myself, travel the world, meet new people and loveeee Mondays, because that means my emails start to fill up again, is a BLESSING!!

As you read before, I didn’t come to London just to “play” it was a step I felt I needed to do to as a leap of faith. My financials were coming together but I wanted my life to be more then that. I wanted to love myself unapologetically, I want to be surround by people who love me and who I love and who make me better. I want to get married in the near future and start a family…and taking care of myself was the first step. I wanted to be a better girlfriend and eventually wife and mother. I don’t believe you can take care of others if you can’t even take care of yourself.

And so I leapt here. I’ve been meeting friends and exploring but what I’m not showing is the many days I sit in my apartment reading the word, meditating, and focusing on what I want out of life. Here’s the kicker, as soon as I made the decision to come to London, to take a “risk,” I got two big jobs that essentially paid for this trip to happen. This is not coincidence my friends. Decide, and then let God do the rest.

All this to say. The life you want to live is just a “risk” of faith away. Dare to have faith in yourself, dare to know that God will give you wings if choose to fly. Pastor Toure once said, “The opposite of faith is not doubt, it’s sight.” Because we can not see it, we don’t allow it to happen.

So even if you don’t see it in front of you, I hope you try your best to believe whatever you want out of this life is possible. I obviously don’t have all the answers and I know this is just the beginning for me on a marvelous journey. My excitement level is on 10 for my life because I chose to live it and I chose to fly. And the next time you look at someone else’s life in envy, ask yourself what are you doing to better your life? Have you taken a leap?

Look around less, imagine more, and watch your life flourish.

Thank you for joining me in this journey. It’s only the beginning and I can’t wait for what’s to come.

xx

20 Comments

  1. Fonda
    5th December 2017 / 2:00 am

    You are such an inspiration! I’m a licensed cosmetologist/Mua that has wanted to be in fashion & interior design. I’ve been doing both on the side but have no clue how to transition. Reading this was What I needed. Keep doing what you do, hopefully I’ll be in your arena soon & maybe we’ll meet. Until then wishing you continued blessings 😊

    • Enocha Tellus
      10th December 2017 / 11:21 pm

      All it takes is that one leap! Wishing you all the best! xoxox

  2. Yvette Corinne
    5th December 2017 / 2:35 am

    Seriously loved this post! Everything was so real. I knew I loved you before but now I love you even more haha. I believe on God’s timing so much it’s unreal. I’m always saying everything happens on God’s time you just have to believe and have faith. So glad you took the faith and now blessing are overflowing. This is only the beginning!

    • Enocha Tellus
      10th December 2017 / 11:22 pm

      Haha girl I love your spirit! Thank you so much!! Let’s be friends when I’m back in LA! lolol

  3. 5th December 2017 / 3:32 am

    Thank you for sharing this. It was such a necessary read for me and an incredibly testimony, challenging me to take that leap for myself. You’re an inspiration! Xoxo

    • Enocha Tellus
      10th December 2017 / 11:23 pm

      I’m so glad I could help be an inspiration. Life is too short to not take the leap!

  4. 5th December 2017 / 3:47 am

    This is so great! I myself struggle with tithes but you give a new perspective to it. I am also on my jouney as well and honestly, gettig closer to God and meditating has def gotten me closer to feeling good again! Thanks for sharing this! I loveeeeee it

    • Enocha Tellus
      10th December 2017 / 11:23 pm

      Thank you for reading. We are all in this together!

  5. 5th December 2017 / 4:35 am

    Thank you so much for taking the time to share your testimony! It helped me, motivated and confirmed exactly what i needed at this moment/seasonnin my life…I share the same tithe story as you do not thinking i could “afford” to tithe but i now know that in order to tithe it takes Faith and obedience. Its 11:30p where I am and again like most nights im up overthinking and enviously scrolling through Insta and Pintrest… coming across your page and on a whim your instastory to this insert made me realize/remember that I cant pray and worry, those two dont work together! Thank you sister for your courage and honesty.

    • Enocha Tellus
      10th December 2017 / 11:28 pm

      Yes! Prayer and worry do not go together. It’s a constant battle but awareness is the most important step. After that it’s just practice! I still practice everyday! I’m so glad I could help motivate you. It’s so important to know we are all working through our own things and we can all help motivate each other!

  6. Angel
    5th December 2017 / 2:28 pm

    Really really enjoyed reading this! Thanks for sharing.

    • Enocha Tellus
      10th December 2017 / 11:24 pm

      So glad you enjoyed it! Thank you for reading xoxoxo

  7. 5th December 2017 / 4:31 pm

    This was a beautiful read and a wonderful blessing!! Many more successes and blessing in your life lady!! Xoxoxo

    • Enocha Tellus
      10th December 2017 / 11:26 pm

      Thank you so much love! You’re an inspiration! xoxo

  8. 6th December 2017 / 11:05 am

    This is so true, I am really happy for you and I pray God rewards you abundantly, very Inspiring post.

    • Enocha Tellus
      10th December 2017 / 11:24 pm

      Thank you love! May God bless you in your journey as well! xoxoxo

  9. 6th December 2017 / 12:25 pm

    OMG YES GIRL, THIS IS AN AMAZING TESTIMONY! CAN’T WAIT TO MEET YOU!

  10. 11th December 2017 / 6:58 pm

    This is absolutely inspiring and encouraging and amazing! I’m so glad you shared this and I’m so glad I read it! How timely! God bless you my dear. I’m glad you are enjoying Him and I see he is enjoying you too! I have a lot of thinking to do about the direction of my life, and lots of leaps that have been put aside…

    Thanks for the push. Love you to the moon and back

    • Enocha Tellus
      11th December 2017 / 7:31 pm

      Aw yay! It’s never too late to leap! Love you cuz!!!!

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